They say if you make it through to November you will make it. I feel like once we get back the same people will be saying "If you make it to February you will make it." Then it will be "once your done with the first year you are golden..."
I decided to take a more positive perspective on the issue. One: I made it to January. Two: I have a million miles to go - I cannot give up now.
I have so many crazy stories, some sad, some ridiculous and others almost unbelievable. I feel like the time for telling them is gone. I think I freaked a few people out. I definitely have not told my parents the majority of what goes on at Harper. Harper, my kids, Teach for America has dominated the majority of all my conversations...what does that say about me...have I become my work...am I ok with that...no I am not. I could lie but people would know.
I have been thinking about what happens next. More and more the conversation about the next few years come up. I never want to say what I am thinking. It isn't fair that I would just leave. But I might want to.
I never deal well with bureaucracy but I manage to always find myself neck deep in it. I knew everything was about hierarchies but I think I didn't want too believe it. I am full of Denial. Who knew...everyone but me?
I am one week from finishing my FIRST SEMESTER OF TEACHING. Unbelievable!
I have been thinking about what happens next. More and more the conversation about the next few years come up. I never want to say what I am thinking. It isn't fair that I would just leave. But I might want to.
I never deal well with bureaucracy but I manage to always find myself neck deep in it. I knew everything was about hierarchies but I think I didn't want too believe it. I am full of Denial. Who knew...everyone but me?
I am one week from finishing my FIRST SEMESTER OF TEACHING. Unbelievable!
